It's time

It's time. Everything will fnally fall into place. If Edward doesn't love me, he will love me in another life. Everything shall turn red, everything shall turn to dust.

No one can

It's finally all fallen into place. The wretch has left, Edward is finally all mine... but why don't I feel happy? Why don't I feel like I've won? He doesn't look at me, talk to me, he does not awknowledge me.
I'm sick of it. Why doesn't he love me? Why is he still infatuated with her? Why does he still love her? WHY?!
It has to end. If I can't have Edward. No one can.

Never

Brother came. His visit was short and rushed. He came with Edward, Edward was distracted and focused only on brother.
There is a hope in brother. He loves me and he will take me away from this small, isolated room.
Brother came and left. He left me in the dark. He does not love me. He left me in this disgusting, dark room to rot. He needs to learn what I feel, he needs to know my pain.
I have my knife, the foolish maid didn't even think twice. As she drinks away her lonliness and sorrow, I will escape. She can't even keep her eyes open.
Brother has come. I lifted my knife and drove it into him, I watched as he screamed in agony and stared at me with cold eyes. It's his own fault. He should have taken me away from here, he plans on leaving me here to rot away.
Brother is done. I will never see him again.

Fire

She is not awake but asleep.

The door is no longer locked

He is just behind that door sleeping in the bed that was once mine. Can't stop me now I'm already moving, I'm already gone.


FIRE
The door is locked and shut tight
Now she is awake
The lady down the hall has come to end the night of fun. She stopped the fire that lay in the bed from eating all the room. The night has ended and I'm alone... till she sleeps again.

Revenge

My darling, my love... my HATE. I never thought HE would lower his standards that far. The things that have happened should be frowned upon. He ... and that GOVERNESS.
Traitor, liar, I hate him, I hate her. I don't believe it. This should have never happened. She is how I am, young, tall, but she will never be as beautiful as me. Filth.
Edward was mine, he loved me, i know he did...didn't he? Did he? he must have... he married ME! Not her. I will make them PAY! I will get my revenge.

Ghost in the walls

They all call me crazy, mad, insane.. they don't understand anything. Sitting in this dark, isolated room by myself, being watched by a woman who reeks of alcohol.
No one understands what it is like staying in this room. It's like being left in a dark forest, waiting for death to greet me. They all think i can't do anything if I'm locked up, but they don't know..I'm the ghost in the walls. No one can stop me, no one can contain me, no one can touch me.
Every time someone walks in my isolated kingdom, I want to hurt them, make them feel my pain and sufferings.
Brother is coming. I heard them talking about it. I don't want him to come. He doesn't understand anything about me. He thinks he knows whats wrong with me, he wants to change me, he wants to fix me. Nothings wrong with me, nothing at all.

He's walking up the stairs, I can hear him through the walls. I can hear every single step he takes, like a lioness listening and watching her prey. I'm going to stab him, he needs to know pain, he's going to bleed.

The new girl in town

There is a new girl in the mansion, she is young, but not as pretty as me.
Who is this girl? Governess? Maid? WIFE?!!.    no... I am Rochester's wife, he is mine.
He loves me, he won't let anyone do anything to me, he won't leave me. He can't.

I think she's a governess. I heard her teaching the child basic English, I can do that, stupid little child, making so much noise, taking up Edward's time and money$$$.